In the future… wait.. NOW!?

I am and always have been a procrastinator.

This is a sad truth that I have been unable to shake my entire life. whether it be the pile of dirty laundry, the dishes in my sink, or this months worth of beard I haven’t got around to trimming. I procrastinate.

Now, one trend I have noticed in the mindset of all procrastinators, is complacency. I have become complacent with my normal day-job of working Tech support for a wireless carrier, I mean it pays the bills and I can still go enjoy a pint or 12 every now and again, but it isn’t anything to brag about at my highschool reunion. There has been a desire within me to change this for some time, just no drive.

For years I have been putting off going to College or University, hell even getting that last highschool credit I never got around to. I intend to, I make the plan, but don’t act. This has left me with several years worth of accumulated “living debt”. I classify Living debt as things like buying a car, rent, utilities, any bill that needs paying plus borrowed money (i.e. Visa, line of credit).

Now everyone knows, school isn’t cheap. So I have been using the excuse of “I can’t afford school”, where in reality, I am saying “I’m too lazy to put forth the effort”. This has caused me to dig my little pit of complacency, a little deeper.

Well, all that carefully constructed complacency, was recently obliterated. I found out that my site is closing and myself and 300+ others are being laid off. The news was bittersweet. I am upset as now I cannot sit back and ride out life anymore, but also glad, as I am now forced to break away from what has stagnated me for so long. I hope to use this forced opportunity to better myself. Hopefully I buckle down and decide to better myself, instead of move to another stagnate pool of comfortable nothing. Alas, it is daunting. There are so many choices, and I must decide by September.

Hope I don’t wait too long…